→ Devil Spoon Cooks: Devil Spoon Bakes: Gluten Free Mini Cheese Buns
devilspooncooks:
Gluten free bread is an adventure. There is some really decent gluten free bread out there but I think the majority of it falls into the terrible category. I haven’t attempted to make loaves of bread myself but I do really dig these mini cheese buns. They’re crispy on the outside and chewy in…
#simple! #gluten free
carynolaflove:
That awkward moment when you take your medication in public and people look at you like you’re taking illegal drugs
(via planetduvet)
#yes #because i would take illegal things infront of you like that #people can be so silly
Losing the fight with myself.
I don’t even know where to start right now.
My anxiety has been controlling me so I’ve been kind of putting off any real interaction irl and on Tumblr, but here it comes.
My doctors appointment had to be moved up because in the last month I’ve been doing worse, and as much as I want to deny it I don’t know how to help myself with this. I try to stay positive especially with other spoonies because I know how hard it is.
The pain won’t give me a break. It used to be with the medication I’m on I could put it in the back of my mind and at least try to do something useful with my time. Now I need it much more and more often. It only blankets the issues. My mom keeps suggesting I try something new, but my anxiety tells me it will work even less. It makes a hard struggle to find the right option.
I’ve been having even more stomach issues, and at this point I’m starting to think there’s more wrong than just IBS. I can’t eat most dairy products, gluten, some fruits and juices bother me, carbonation feels strange, plus a bunch of random other foods, (and to top it off I have been vegetarian for 5 years.) I know my nutrition stinks and that’s part of the reason I’m feeling so low.
The CFS has gotten to the point where I find myself falling asleep during my favorite TV shows, and various things I used to enjoy. I take so many naps it’s ridiculous. Plus, fibro-fog is making it harder to remember everything.
Then on to my mental health:
Anxiety is my main worry even though all the other things are going on (is ‘worry’ even a proper term to use about worry? ‘ha?’) I’m having anxiety attacks almost daily over my health. I just get so worried about what I can and can’t do and the future, and it’s triggering to even type about it. I’m also having a huge hard time with interacting with others. Sending asks, posting personal stuff on my other blog, talking to people in person, etc are making me nervous. I’m having to blare my favorite music as I type this so I don’t get to anxious about posting this, even if I know I need to get it out.
Then there’s the depression kicking me in the butt too. Telling me I’m useless that I’ll never be worth anything to anyone because of my illnesses and it sucks hearing it, even from myself. I know in my heart it’s not true, but I can’t shake it.
Wow, this is a hell of a check in I guess.
I want to be positive, I want to say everything is great and life goes on, but sometimes I can’t.
All I can say is sometimes these things happen. It’s okay to have things go wrong. It’s okay to vent when you need it. It’s okay to be who you are, don’t hide it.
Keep trucking even if things are crashing.
I’m getting incredibly cheesy, but I have to remind myself of it all. I have to say it. Even if I don’t believe myself sometimes.
#journal #CFS #chronic illness #fibromyalgia #IBS #stomach issues #anxiety #depression #chronic fatigue #irritable bowel syndrome
A journal type blog about my life living with fibromyalgia. I just got diagnosed a week ago, but I've been living with it in remission for a few years. 
